Reminiscence

It takes years for me to understand,

That it is you I always note from afar,

That I love you in every single moment I am to pass.

I carve your presence in my reverie every night,

For I always wish the time you’re here could standstill.

My heart pounds when I catch your name on the phone,

And it stops when you turn down the conversation.

If I could freeze times when you’re always remember me,

I will ask no more.

But I have no excuses to freeze it,

When I capture that time flows as it never waits.

Even if denial is all I need, I painfully confess you notice another girl.

I am struggling to make in no doubt that I’m not that hurt.

And it kills me that I couldn’t stand any longer.

Is it only me who’s getting hurt?

It’s freaking me that I’m not that significant for you,

And I do nothing to overlook you, because it costs nothing.

How could I look further?

If you never welcome how much I have to bear?

I’m in no way for a thank you message for all that I’ve given,

In fact, I don’t know what I would like to hear from you.

After all, I believe I could have a chance,

I have faith that there’s still one small spot left for me,

But you’ve told me that it’s not mine.

I am trapped in no where and I can’t move.

Even if it has been a while to battle all the truth

That now I am broken hearted,

I couldn’t refuse myself,

That you’re the first man; I had shed my tears for.

Will it be an unforgettable reminiscence?

(March 23th, 2007)